Pheww...
Okay, lest you all think I went off the deep end, I wanted to assure you that I am all better from my post last night. Then again, it is only 7:30 in the morning, so we haven't had much of an opportunity to let this day bomb, yet.
Unfortunately, last night only went from bad to worse. After the excruciating "dinner time" experience with my son, I figured it might be a good idea to take everyone to the park. Well, I thought wrong. That time, it was my daughter's time to have a meltdown. And, in true tantrum fashion, she literally cry/screamed (is there a word for that?) the entire way home from the park, insisting that "I DIDN'T GET TO PLAY! I WANT TO GO BACK!" And, unfortunately for me, the entire neighborhood was outside last night, and either on their way to or from the park, so everyone got a taste of how "well-behaved" my kids truly are. I just continued to walk home and began to laugh. Really LAUGH. So, if you didn't think I was insane before, perhaps you do now. But, trust me- last night if I didn't laugh, I'd cry.
I don't know- my wonderful girlfriend with five children of her own- gave me the helpful advice that I need some progesterone.
Hmm. I may have to look into that. Not the cream kind that you rub on your arm, that's like 20 milligrams... the kind you get a Rx for and stick under your lip... it's like 200 milligrams.
Apparently it's the "chill you out" wonder "drug??" - do you even call it that? Supplement?? Who knows- it's probably yet another thing I can't take because I'm nursing. For 6 years, I've been able to take virtually nothing... for anything... because I've either been pregnant and/or nursing. And, yes, before you try to do the math in your head- my "baby" is almost 2. And I'm not apologizing.
Well, regardless, there is one place I can turn... literally, and figuratively. One place I can look for help to get me through my day. As I type, I am reminded of the instruction in Hebrews to
"Let us look only to Jesus, the One who began our faith and who makes it perfect. He suffered death on the cross. But he accepted the shame as if it were nothing because of the joy that God put before him. And now he is sitting at the right side of God's throne." Hebrews 2:12Wow- one of the most powerful paragraphs in the scriptures. Well, there are many. But this passage, in 4 sentences, puts ALL of life
ALL back into perspective. No matter how "bad" I think my day is going,
"Let me look only to Jesus" ... no matter how frustrated or overwhelmed I may feel,
"the One who began our faith and who makes it perfect." Because of the incomprehensible fact that
"He suffered death on the cross," (for ME, a grumbling, impatient, fearful, forgetful, failing mortal human being).
But he accepted the shame as if it were nothing because of the joy that God put before him. And now he is sitting at the right hand of God's throne."That is
unbelievably mighty and powerful and humbling. And the power of that truth TRUMPS my measly daily frustrations ANY TIME. When I fix my eyes upon Jesus. And I fix my eyes upon what He did. And when I fix my eyes on the prize... the true POINT of this entire journey on earth (so that we may live in JOY with Christ... eternally), I am grateful, and humbled and reminded of my priorities in life, and so very thankful that
"Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." - Lam 3:22-23