Losing Control

I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white, I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security
But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.

- "Let it Go" - Tenth Avenue North

Ahhh- what do you know, a short break from "boring pictures of my kids" ;) I felt inspired to share with you some lyrics from a song that has been very powerful for me lately. As a natural born Type-A (or did I create this monster over the years? I think that's it)... this song is exactly what I need to hear.

I love this song because it couldn't possibly speak more fully to the truth. In particular, "You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control. You say you will be, everything I need." Why is it that so often I think I can "do" life without Him- and, more specifically- without Him in the driver's seat. This life is so NOT about what me, my plans, what I "think" would be best.

Trust me, there is nothing I'd love more than to be able to make all the plans for my life and know it would turn out just exactly how I'd planned it. Or, better yet, throw in my "ability" to plan out all my children's lives just how I think they should go... and then know it would turn out just as I had imagined. Bliss!

I'd love to be the one in the driver's seat. I'd love to be the one holding the pen. There's just one problem with that. There is an omnipotent Author and Creator who knows better than I do. He's already written the story. There is a God in Heaven who has it all in His hands. I can choose to trust that, or I can choose to push that aside and still try to do it on my own. But even during the times I fail to acknowledge Him, or even when I try to take over, it doesn't make Him being in control any less of a reality.

It's only when I submit to His will... and quit trying to always force my ideas, plans, and wishes (both big and small) will I be able to rest in His peace. The peace that surpasses all understanding. When He is in the driver's seat, it is so much easier to sit back and enjoy the journey along the way.

God- I pray that you would help me to sit back, quit trying to always take over and figure everything out. Help me to rest in the assurance and promise that you know the plans that you have for my life- plans to bring hope and a future (Jer. 29:11). Help me to not only stop being a "back-seat driver" - but give me the ability to sit back and enjoy the ride... to throw my hair to the wind, feel the breeze on my face and know that You've got it all worked out. - Amen